So as luck would have it, I was offered a full-time position in Ventura, right at the time I was taking a step towards a commitment to the job in Bishop. Crap. The decision was excruciating, but I just made the call and turned it down. It may have been insane of me to do so, it was a great offer with a great organization. Yet pursuing the position in Bishop just feels right on some strange unexplainable level. I'm scared to death; another big change. But for some reason I feel like this is something I am supposed to do right now. I want to build a life here. I don't know what it will look like, but I'm willing to give it a shot. As my good friend reminded me last night--it's okay to be scared. My goal now is to lean into the fear, to get cozy and embrace it. I'm on the brink of a major change, so of course there's fear and uncertainty, it's how I relate to it that makes me suffer or not. The more I resist, the more it persists. As my favorite Psychotherapist and spiritual teacher often says: invite the fear to tea. Look it in the eye, and be with it. You will ultimately learn much more about yourself in the process.
Soundtrack: Bob Dylan, Don't Think Twice, it's Alright
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